Words of Wonder #1: Martha Graham

“There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all of time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and it will be lost. The world will […]

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The Ego is Just a Phase…

[This is a second excerpt from the recent ‘Tender Heart’ Scarborough Retreat held in March 2019. The first is here.  This is a transcript from day 3 looking at the ego phase we all need to grow through… Alistair has just been talking about how when things feel ‘too much’ in meditation we lurch towards […]

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Tapping and Meditation: Coming Out as a Practitioner of Both

statue with tapping marks on face and torso

Tapping and meditation are my guilty secret There’s a thing that I have been keeping quiet about and I’m not sure why.  Many years ago, when I was finishing five years of therapy with my wonderful therapist, Ruthie, she looked at me and said: “You realise that we’ve been working together all these years and […]

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From the Scarborough Retreat

looking down Scarborough Promendade towards the castle and across the bay

[This is an excerpt from the recent ‘Tender Heart’ Scarborough Retreat held in March 2019.] Q: You mentioned the  Earth being already enlightened and that it was the Earth that made us enlightened, not our own efforts, Can you elaborate on that? A: The truth is that the thinking mind, the ego, can’t get anywhere […]

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Alistair Appleton LGBT video: Survival of the Gentlest

Alistair Appleton LGBT video Survival of the Gentlest A few people have mentioned this YouTube clip of me giving a ‘sermon’ at the wonderful Brighton Metropolitan Community Church a few years back. So I thought I’d post it here since I didn’t put it up here the first time around!    

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Mögu & My Problem with Teachers

Holy Island Mindsprings Winter Retreat Blog

The need to be a ‘know-it-all’ I have a problem with teachers.  When I was little  – for various reasons I won’t bore you with – I always felt that I had to know the answer before the question was asked. The possibility of being wrong or not being ‘perfect’ was a big problem for […]

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From Retreat 2019: Winter on the Island

Friends whispered that Winter on the Island was the most magical  I’ve been going to Holy Island for almost two decades – sometimes twice or three times a year. But until this January I had never been there in the Winter.  Most of the Mindsprings retreats take place in the Summer and Autumn when vivid-green […]

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Ben the Protector Dog

the sweetest, fondest, brightest dog I’ve ever had Ok, so we have a dog. A puppy. A 40kg puppy.  My husband promised that our Spanish rescue was a small boy, the little one of the litter and probably wouldn’t be any bigger than 35kg full grown.  When he hopped out of the transport van that […]

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Happy Year of the Earth Sow!

Sitting in the winter garden with a head cold I am planning to write a set of blog posts about my 2 week retreat on Holy Island this winter, but I thought I’d ease myself back into writing and using my left-brain with something more embodied and immediate. My husband and I both have terrific […]

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Leaving the Toddler Mind at the Porch of the Church

An art historian with a spooky and potentially kinky relationship I was just reading a lovely article by the New York composer Nico Muhly in the London Review of Books. He was describing his method of composition – which seems to involve a dizzying array of folders and layers and copies and projects which he […]

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